Struggle to adjust without Bella

June 25th, 2017

Dear Sweet Baby Bella,

It’s been two months since you went to Pet Heaven at Rainbow Bridge and our missing you is more painful than ever. We love you.

As you know we have two new additions to the family with Bleu and Gracie, and we love them dearly, but there just isn’t a strong bond with them yet; to be very honest. At least for me personally. I feel this awful guilt and something just isn’t natural at this point. Maybe, over time, we will feel more comfortable together. I just don’t know.

Your bub, Jack, seems to be of the same opinion based on his body language. He seems somewhat withdrawn and stubborn recently. It could be from the summer heat and desire to lounge around in the air-conditioned house, but I truly feel that he misses you as badly as I do. It’s truly painful.

Jack and I spend so many private, special moments together and that’s really wonderful. I sneak him food and give him lots of extra special attention. I talk with him and try to explain things as best as I can. He is such a perfect guy that we cannot love him enough.

Sweet Bella, I’m going to change my Facebook logo today from your beautiful picture today and I feel an awful guilt about doing-so but I hope you can understand. I will rotate images of your beauty in your great honor just as I have with Misty.



Kevin Neal Life Update 6/13/2017

Life in the Neal house has certainly been different since Bella went to Pet Heaven on 4/27/17. Honestly, there is an impossible-to-fill void in our hearts for her.  We are doing our best but our lovely daughter of 15 glorious years is dearly missed.


Brandee, Jack and I miss our sweetest Bella like you can’t believe. This past month without her feels like it’s been 30 years, instead of 30 days. She was such a great part of our lives for 15 wonderful years that it will take time to adjust, but it’s difficult; to say the least.

It’s really hard to express just how much Bella meant to our family. She was the center of our universe. Bella provided our family such great love and comfort that we miss so badly. We can only hope that we provided such comfort in reciprocity.

We love you baby and are so happy that you are enjoying your time in Pet Heaven at Rainbow Bridge until we meet again.



Brandee and I kicked off the Summer ’17 BBQ season with a fun-filled event at our home.  We invited some of our close friends and family over for hamburgers, hot dogs and fun.  We all had a lot of fun socializing and watching all the crazy activity going on.  It was a crazy mix of first’s because it was the first time a group of strangers were in the house with our new kitten and new puppy.



While Jack seems physically healthy, I get a clear feeling that he has become more distant for some reason.  I think part of this is mourning for his beloved sissy, Bella, as maybe he’s still waiting for her to come home and doesn’t understand that she went to Pet Heaven.  Or, and I hate to say it but I’m thinking it none-the-less, the guilt of two new sisters.  Of course, these two new sissies are in no means a replacement for Jack’s beautiful sister but I can share his agony and it’s tough to adjust.

Jack is our best buddy so Brandee and I are doing extra special things to spoil our perfect son.


Gracie and Bleu

Our recently adopted 8-month old chiweenie puppy, Gracie, and our 7-week old kitten, Bleu, continue to live their carefree lives as naïve children, which has brought some sense of levity to our home that is badly needed right now.  They have provided a nice distraction as we all adjust together as one big family.

Gracie and Jack seem to be getting along much better as the day’s go by. They play together for hours each day which is certainly good for both of them.  However, weighing out at barely 2 ½ pounds, Bleu, has already taken control of the household.  Jack and Bleu rarely have direct contact, although he does protect Bleu when Gracie gets a bit rough in her playing.  On the other hand, Gracie (puppy) and Bleu (kitten) play with each other nearly non-stop and it’s really funny to witness.  Even though Gracie is small, Bleu is even much smaller at something like a 7:1 ratio, yet Bleu dictates the fight (i.e. play action).



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Bella Letter to Heaven, 06/05/2017

Hey Baby,

Mom, Bubby and I miss you a ton!

We are trying to move-on as a family but it’s just not there without you right now. It’s very difficult.

As you know we adopted two sissies a few weeks ago and I’m glad to provide them a home. Yet, I have to be honest that no matter how much love they bring to this household, they cannot fill the emptiness you left.

I feel so sick for Bubby, in particular. He is not the same person since you left. It’s very painful to experience and Mommy and I give him extra special attention. There is no way that we can replace your loviness for him so we just try to do our best.


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We love you with all our heart and please send sweet dreams.